It is hard to be frustrated when I have a wonderful husband to help me at home everyday.
Frustrated that our routine at home is REALLY off kilter. Frustrated that I could not join our neighbors for a hike up the mountain with the older girls because it would have been too much for me. Frustrated that I am only one person and can only do so much in one day. Frustrated that my time with my kids is not filled with love and laughter ALL OF THE TIME.
I want to re-think things. I NEED to re-think things. I am tired of plugging away at our day. Tired of routine. Tired of sitting there or folding laundry and watching my kids play with other people. I want to be a PART of life. I NEED to live a little more. Enjoy my kids a little more. Enjoy our life and enjoy that my husband is home to enjoy it with us.
At this point I'm not sure if I remember how to do that and that makes me sad.