April 25, 2007

Embracing change

Not feeling particularily creative these days. I don't know if it is that I am just busy focusing on the baby and our move coming up, or I just don't have the energy to think outside the box right now.

I've been trying to focus on enjoying these last days with Peyton still in my belly. I know that God's timing is perfect and so I'm not wishing him to come before his time. I know that very soon he will be in my arms so why spend my days wishing something away that I know I will miss.

I have to admit however that I am ready. I am certainly ready to start holding him in my arms now. As much as I like the convenience of two arms free I think I am ready to take charge of my body again. This morning I could certainly do without the nightly pee rituals and changing positions so I can stop acheing. I would love to be able to shave my legs again and walk my kids to the park without having to sit down to rest. I'm just ready.
So Lord, I know your timing is perfect and he will come when it is time, but I'm just putting it out there. I'm ready when you are :)

Funny because a part of me does not think the day is ever going to come. I really don't think I'm going to go into labor...ever. I also don't believe we are going to be in our new home in the country in less than a month. It just does not feel real. But it is and I'm excited about it. What a change that is about to happen....how different our lives will be.

I know that life will certainly not all of a sudden be perfect and I know for sure I will now experience different challeges with my body ( exhaustion/night sweats/weight loss) but I am ready for that change.

please.....any day now...really.....I'm ready.....not that I'm complaining :)

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Hi Alyson

Just dropping you a short note to say have a great day. Give your girls hugs from us.