I can only try to explain the incredible feeling of peace that I have today. It is a feeling that I am in the right spot. I'm trusting, and I'm living. I'm right where I need to be.
Yesterday was a wonderful day. Not because of anything, but because of nothing. My husband has been fencing now for a week. He is fencing a part of the farm he has wanted to pasture our cattle on for a few years now.
It just so happens to be 'that spot'. The one that held our wedding reception. The one we will build our house on.
Yesterday I decided to take a walk to see how he was doing. It was a perfectly sunny and crisp day. The kind where everything is just right. I'm going to have trouble describing the irony of everything. So I will just say this:
As we stood there, we saw at least five dreams of ours that were coming true. Even the oak tree my husband has always wanted, is growing right where we would see it from our new home. We just laughed at our lives, and how we want the same things. So many things that we have wanted in our lives and throughout our lives both together and individually are coming together. The best part is that some of it is not by our doing. Some of it, God has put together (like the tree), and it is so funny.
It is peaceful knowing that in His timing all will be. I have no doubt of the future, but I'm o.k with the waiting. I'm o.k with HIS timing.
Want to know the BEST part???
My husband and I have this overwhelming feeling that our farm has to do with healing of some sort. Healing on SO many levels. We have even discussed our farm being being some sort of outreach for hurting teens. A place of healing for them. A place where they can be immersed in animals and God's creation.
Yesterday I realized for the first time that it is me. I am the first graduate of the program. I have found so much healing here in so many ways.
I'm at peace, and now I'm ready to share it.