Thank you everyone for your comments on my previous post. I have to agree with Suzin that questioning WHY we do things is not a bad thing. I think it is good to take a step back and make sure the way we are living our lives is in sink with our values. We can too often start getting into a routine and forgetting to think,smile and have some fun. I know that I too often go through our daily routine like a robot, forgetting that I need to be living a life. This holds true for me lately as I am adjusting to life at home with 4 children.
Homeschooling certainly is not the issue. That I am certain. I am positive that Homeschooling IS the best thing for my children at this time in our lives and I don't regret a single moment of it. What IS the issue is my ATTITUDE about things that I need to change, and not necessarily how we live our life.
As for accepting that I am a certain way vs. Changing the parts that need changing, I have come to a couple of conclusions:
1) I DO need at least 5-30 mins a day to myself in order to be a nice person.
2) I DO need to get out for a run to feel alive.
3) I DO need the sunshine to feel happy
4) I DO need a relatively clean and organized house to feel calm.
As for everything else, Tammy is right. It does not matter whether or not I homeschool. It does not matter whether or not we live in the country or the city. It does not matter whether or not I wear blue or pink pj's. What matters is my attitude and focus. What matters is that whatever I decide to do in my life NEEDS to be GOOD. It needs to honor God and be pleasing to Him. I need to make sure the lifestyle we choose as a family brings out the BEST IN ME. That my attitudes and actions are setting the best example for my kids.
And with prayerful consideration in ALL things in my life, I feel I can do that.
I'll admit that in my head I already knew ALL of this. In fact, most days I know it AND believe it. I was just having a bad day and thought I would share my thoughts. See? I have bad days too.
So thanks...I feel better about things now.
Oh, and today is Friday and we have had a GREAT WEEK. I SERIOUSLY need to remember NOT to question my life on a Monday....like EVER.