I drove into town the other night to drop the kids off somewhere. I noticed the Christmas lights. How in the country they light up the entire area because there are no other lights around. I like how they light the way. It is peaceful and a nice break from the blackness of a country winter drive. Pretty.
Once the kids were dropped off I decided to walk until they were finished. I went for a really long beautiful walk in the city. I walked by the old houses looking at the Christmas displays and breathing in some night air.
I miss that. I miss being able to walk at night. What a nice way to end the day. A night walk in the city. So much better than frumping on the couch at 7pm to watch T.V.....something I saw plenty of as I passed by many a window.
I miss that about living in town. I miss the walks. In the country if you dare walk down the road at night you risk being stunned in the headlights of a passing car. Not very safe and certainly not a nice thing.
I found myself dreaming of my days when I was on my own. walking everywhere. I found that a simple and enjoyable part of my day. When we were first married, everyday after work we would walk together and talk about our day. I can easily see us living in town. Walking to the YMCA, the grocery store, the Coffee Shop, the Park. I suppose a part of me will always be a city girl....a part of me will always wonder...did I do the right thing moving to the country? Is my soul fulfilled?? Are we missing a lifestyle that I love so much?
Perhaps a part. I suppose I can always visit the city when I drop the kids off or take a detour before I get my groceries. We can always drive in to go to the park to play and go for coffee. Besides. In the city I would not have fresh eggs in my backyard, and my kids would not have acres of safe land to play on.
Who knows what the future holds. Maybe someday we WILL leave the peace of the country for an easier to maintain home. Maybe at that point it will be what is right for us. Perhaps. Perhaps I don't have to chose just yet. Perhaps there is room in my heart for both.
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Maybe you can be like my grandmother - she lives at our farm from May to November and then moves to her house in the city for the winter months so she's not so isolated.
I totally know what you mean. I get that same feeling whenever we go back to the city. I guess that just proves it that nowhere is perfect; we'll always love certain things about certain places and not necessarily be able to duplicate those experiences and pleasures in a different area ~ which will, in turn, hold new loves for us.
And I'm betting you couldn't have a llama in town either!
oh how the heartstrings pull some days for the lives we used to have. :)
It will all come back when the kids are grown up and gone.
Just enjoy what you have now because it's priceless.
You wondered a little while ago what it would be like without kids.
Well that is just a taste of whats to come. Don't rush it. It will come faster then you think.
Luv Ya
Dad
I like the idea of the living on the farm and the city half the time. Good idea!!! We'll keep this house and buy a tiny little home in town.
And Adam knows how much he is appreciated. He thinks he's saving up for weeks of sickness ;)
I miss some of the conveniences of town--especially the going for a walk part!
Picture this: me w/ a baby tied to my back, Aviana balanced on the back of a single jog stroller & Brielle in it. It takes a lot of effort to walk in the country!
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