Ever have one of THOSE DAYS?? Of course you do. We all do. You know the days. The ones where you don't feel like you can do anything right? So what went wrong yesterday you ask? Nothing really. Nothing broke or got destroyed. My kids were great and of course so was my husband. I just had an aweful day. A day where I kept wondering why God gave me children if I am just going to mess them up?? Like I said...they are great. My kids are angels ( as kids go). I just for some reason wanted to crawl under a rock yesterday and be alone. I think the fact that I am fighting a little cold and have not slept in seven weeks could have something to do with it. The fact that I can't leave my babies side because I am the only one who can nourish him. I love it...but today I am tired of it.
So I went back to bed. All day. That is right. That is how fabulous my husband is. When I ventured outside to do some weeding with the whipper snipper he told me to just go rest. So nice. Thanks hun.
Today I feel better. I wonder how I will feel on my run. Running always makes me feel better.
Even though today I still have a nagging feeling that I am just going to mess up my kids by being their mom I will smile and be as nurturing as I can. I think today is a postpardum blues days. So yes I get it too. Being a mom for 5 years now I am o.k with the fact that I'm allowed to have a bad day.
I know that something will happen today that will pull at my heart strings and I'll be right back to wanting to devote my time to these little people. It won't be hard...they are adorable.
I feel better already. Thanks for listening.