I was reminded today by a fellow blogger about a revelation I had when I decided to stay home with my first born instead of work. It goes along with my previous post about finding your lifes purpose, so I thought I would share my middle of the night insight.
My job as a medic in the army reserves and my degree in sports medicine has always given me a passion for 'fixing' people and making a difference in their lives. I remember none a greater feeling than being 17 and told Thank you...what you did for me really helped.
It was those kinds of experiences that led me to join the Navy as a medic Full time, to travel the world and make an impact on those my hands touched. I wanted to 'save the world' one hurting body after another.
However, as soon as I was married, had Lara and had to leave her for 4 months my understanding of 'impact' changed.
I realized at that point in my life that I could make a difference wherever I was. I don't have to be sailing around the world doing foreign missions to help people. I realized that raising my kids, being a good wife, daughter and friend were important, if not MORE important than world missions. I meet people every day in life and there is such a need right where I am. I can impact (for good or bad) anyone I run into. Neighbors, friends, clerks ect...and it is my attitude that could either make or break their day.
I no longer TRY to figure out what God has planned for me. I just go with it. I am working on being a Godly human being living for Him. That alone is hard enough without galavanting across the globe ;)
The way I see it is this.... God wants us to Glorify and Honor Him wherever we are, and if we are doing that than we are fufilling a purpose in life greater than anything. We are to BLOOM WHERE WE ARE PLANTED so to speak.
I think that is also why I am so content with the role God has given me. I've been able to embrace it. Don't get me wrong...most days I think I fall way short of the woman he wants and needs me to be. But I'm getting there. At least I can say I'm trying....and even if I'm uprooted and my seeds blow all over the place, I know my heart is in the right place.
I am determined to Bloom wherever I go....even if somedays my leaves are a little withered from lack of water and sunshine.