January 28, 2011

Separation Anxiety...

I am relying on God to get me through today because I am completely FREAKING OUT! I leave for vacation in less than 24hrs and have SO MUCH to get done. I am also leaving my children in capable hands but for some reason I am so worried about them.

5 years ago Adam and I went on vacation. Lara was 2.5years and Erin was 14 months. I didn't have a problem then but for some reason I am having trouble with the thought of leaving them 'on their own' for over a week. The older girls are going to miss us and the baby....oh the baby!!! She is just a baby you know!! I have not left the baby for 24HRS EVER!

I know...I know. I will have a GREAT TIME! and my babies will be just FINE! I'm just going through a little separation anxiety. I mean...I am always there! I am the one who organizes and plans everything. The one who is there to kiss the boo boos and wipe noses. What do you mean I have to let someone ELSE do that???? This must be how the first day of day care or kindergarten feels. Tears...lots of them on both sides.....and then

BLISS!! and quiet. At least that is what I keep telling myself. Just pray for me. Pray that I'll have a great time and not worry about them. I will allow God and others to take care of their needs and wants and that I'll returned a refreshed mom...

3 comments:

Alicia said...

Good luck! Praying for you.

tammi said...

I will pray for you this week ~ and your children and their caregivers. I am sure you will have a wonderful time!

Stacey said...

It will be a great time for you and your husband to just enjoy each other :) My husband and I went away about 1 1/2 years ago, without out 2 kids, who were almost 4 and almost 2 at the time. They did GREAT! We were gone for just over two weeks, and I only really had a hard time when we were on our way home. Then the anxiety hit hard.