I have not slept past 4hrs straight in MONTHS. In fact, I have not slept longer than 3 hrs in a row in weeks. But I'm not complaining. I'm sick..but not complaining.
This morning at 3am, when I got up to help her find her soother and tuck her flailing arms back in AGAIN...I smiled.
Even if this lasts a year and I age faster than I would like, it is JUST A YEAR. My oldest is turning 8 this year and these years are so far behind her that I miss them. It is hard to imagine that she was once a wee babe in my arms. It is hard to remember her smell and her smile at that age.
It it true what they say about how fast the years go by. Soon Audrey will be sleeping through the night and no longer wearing cuddly pyjamas with feet. So I'm not going to complain about being tired all the time. I'm not going to complain that she needs me so much. That she breastfeeds every 2hrs, that I need to run outside to do chores between naps, and wear her on my back to vaccuum.
Nope. I'm going to soak it all in and enjoy, because the thought of them all grown up today brings tears to my eyes and I will regret ever complaining about these days.
So have a great Tuesday. Enjoy. Find Joy.