November 13, 2008

What I Think I need is sometimes not what God Knows I need

I woke up early this morning. Well, I guess not woke up early as much as just stopped trying to sleep. I tossed and turned all night.
Early this morning I figured out why.
I got my period. (sorry boys)

Anyway it came today. Late.

I admit that I was positive I was pregnant. In fact, the last two weeks have consumed me. I've been hoping...praying...wondering.

They seriously need to come up with a test that can tell you the second you get pregnant!! none of this waiting four weeks crap!

Anyway...that also explains my ahem....slight....moodiness.

I'll admit it. I've been a crazy emotional lunatic for a few weeks. Ask my husband...I'm sure he will just smile THAT smile.

Anyway...not the point of this post.

Point is, I've been up since before the sun came up. I've had my tea, I've folded blankets, got myself dressed, checked the finances and e-mail, fed the chickens, checked the fire, and opened all the blinds.

That feels nice. I kinda needed an hour to breathe. An hour to take in the fact that I am not having another baby. At least not today. I needed an hour to prepare the house and myself for the laughter and craziness that comes with my 3 kids.

I needed this hour.

So although I did not get what I thought that I needed this morning....God gave me something I did need. Peace with His decision.

For that I am Thankful.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I loved this post, Alyson. I'm glad God gave you peace this morning. I'm with you - I love an hour before the mayhem just to prepare for the day.

And I can't count the number of times I've received "THAT smile" from Dave.

Bess said...

He always knows what we need and don't need, and at the right times. And even though we may not always understand His ways, it's nice being content with His will for you. :o)