Explaining my Lack of Posting Lately

I sometimes struggle about what to write in this here blog.

Writing has always been cathartic for me. Necessary even. It has been a way of expressing myself. Of sorting out my thoughts and making sense of my mind.

Writing is like talking. I feel so much better as soon as I say it. If I can just listen to myself. Tell someone then I instantly feel relieved. Problem solved no....just out there, being sorted out instead of rolling around in my head not making sense and driving me crazy.

I struggle about what to write here. I know a lot of friends and family read this blog, and knowing that I tend to filter what I say.

I mean. I guess that is a good thing. After all....once I write it down it never goes away. Also...just because I'm having a thought, it does not mean it is true or that 5 minutes later I won't regret what I said.

Can you imagine a world where we all ACTUALLY said what we were REALLY thinking? Without ANY regard to anyone else??

I had a boyfriend like that once. It was not good. Not good at all.

I also have to keep some things private. I mean this IS a public space and some things are for Adam and I only. Some things I WANT to keep to myself.

So...what do I write about?

These days I'm not too sure, but I promise soon I'll come up with something worth reading about.

For now I think I need to keep my thoughts to myself.