Mixed Emotions

Some leaves are changing and the air is cooler in the mornings. The weather is beautiful and perfect but I find myself emotional and sad.

Fall is coming and my summer is almost over.

But what summer?

It has rained almost everyday for months. Not torrential rain, but enough that we now expect the clouds to roll in and out pretty much all day long.

Not good for Hay. Really not good. In fact, the horse farms around here are getting nervous. They are running short of hay, and if they can't get it off the land soon, they are going to have to buy it elsewhere.

But really, that is not why I'm sad. I don't have horses.

I do have babies.

And they are growing fast.

Lara is entering grade one this year.

I am full of mixed emotions.

Emotions of change.

I don't do change very well.

Especially since I still plan on homeschooling her. The last two kindergarten years were easy choices, and she is doing great, and I'm glad I made the decision to keep her home. This year is different. This year is a much bigger decision...and a little scarier.

I've read and re read my books, and made my pros and cons lists....and checked them twice. I have to admit that I'm a little bit on the fence. I want to make the decision that is best for HER. So I am praying that God lays on my heart what I should do. I pray that by the first week of school I feel confident in whatever decision I choose.

I'm sure I will....I hope I will....

I decided to do some back to school shopping for the girls anyway to get us all in the spirit of Back to school whether it be home or not. I figure I might as well take advantage of the cheap school supplies and stock up the house. I also bought the girls a new outfit each.

Regardless of what lies ahead...we are ready for a change, and ready to learn....looking cute in new outfits. Again....we have our priorities straight ;)