I've had an 'A-HA!' moment.
I am a To-Do list person. I write EVERYTHING down. It is a stress coping mechanism I learned long ago. My mind tends to start playing over and over and over the things I need to do and when I write it down and see it...Voila! I stop thinking about it constantly and I am not so overwhelmed.
The best part about my lists is that I can cross things off and breathe a big happy sigh of accomplishment. Also, I can remind myself about calls I need to make and such because frankly I have a horrible memory.
Anyway...To my point...
I realized yesterday that I cannot possibly write down a list of To-Do's relating to the daily stuff involved with taking care of my 3 kids.
Quite frankly THAT would be one BIG LIST and quite overwhelming in itself.
AND...the priorities CONSTANTLY change ie. poopy baby, hurt child,spilled milk etc.
AND....all of the child stuff DOES take constant priority over my ACTUAL list of To-Do's.
WHAT IS MY POINT?
My point is that I am feeling frazzled lately because I'm not catching up on my To-Do's with my kids. BECAUSE THE TO-DO LIST IS NEVER EVER...EVER ENDING!!
Also...There is no way I am going to reduce child rearing to a list. That just seems so wrong.
So what satisfaction am I to get from that? There is no sigh of accomplishment as I cross that one off the list. There is ALWAYS another poopy bum, mess,mouth to feed, and child to 'correct'.
So what am I to do about it?
Nothing.
I'm just realizing what the problem is. The solution is hard/easy. The solution is to get over it. I just need to get over the fact that my day is long and constant and when it is 7pm, the kids are sleeping, dishes are done and all is quiet I can
BREATHE A SIGH OF RELIEF AND CROSS A BLESSED DAY WITH MY KIDS OFF MY LIST.
There...DONE.
3 comments:
I totally live for the girls' bedtime!!!
Your last few posts are a carbon copy of how I think and feel and my struggles with motherhood. Most days I feel like I am just not cut out for this job -- and most certainly under-qualified!! It's physically demanding and emotionally draining, that's for sure.
oh my gosh..i am the SAME way!!! I have a daily planner...and i write all things i am doing for the day down so i can cross them off as i go..and it is such a wonderful feeling of accomplishment and organization cuz i didn't forget anything. But how totally right you are about our kids! I guess I never thought of it that way!
I try my best to see my kids as the fun and unorganized part of me! LOL and I think that keeps me balanced!!!
Have a great day Alyson!
....your kids are asleep at 7???!? THAT'S something to feel accomplishment over! :)
Sorry to read about your chicken! Losing one (or more) is never fun.. Unless you get to eat it, maybe...
I like your blog!
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