So last night I broke. I gave everything I had in me mommy wise and then I just had nothing left to give.
I have to admit that at one point I prayed and cried out to God that I felt completely abandoned by Him. I kept praying that Peyton would miraculously just go to sleep. No miracles. Just me trying to hold it together for four hours in the middle of the night.
I had a moment....a plea barganing session if you will.
It lasted until 630am when I picked up the phone to call my mom. I needed her.
God sent her to me ;)
She was my miracle. God was there holding my tears last night while I rocked my baby to sleep...then he sent in my mom.
He used this opportunity to show me that I still need her and he reminded her just how much she is needed.
It was good.
Mom's are good.
Mine is the best.
In case you are wondering, Peyton woke up at 3am and screamed at me until 7am...it was awful.
I called my mommy crying in the morning and she came over without hesitation.
(I am a little emotional when I don't sleep)
Mommy to the rescue.
She held the fort while I took a two hour nap.
Gotta love mommies.
They are there for their baby at 3am rocking,swaddling,feeding, and cuddling,
and they come running over when their 30 year old baby needs them.
Gotta love God for Giving us mommies to help us.
We are never too old to need our mommies...or God
6 comments:
Yeah for moms! A screaming baby is enough to ring on the tears at teh best of times, let alone when you need a little more sleep! Ask my sis, I know of what I speak! Hey Peyton, sleep for the nice mommy eh?
Beautiful, m'love.
Praise God for Moms. I dont know what i would do with out mine. I pray your baby has a better night tonight.
I am sorry you had such a rough time through the night!! I def. have troubles when i can't sleep too! That is so wonderful your mom helped out. I have a mom like that and truly feel blessed to have her in my life! I hope you have a good weekend!
You're so right! And so fortunate that your mom is close enough to come when you need her. (good for you, holding off until morning to call -- sheesh, I'd have been on the phone no later than 4!!)
The feelings you described came back so vividly to me. I think all of us have been where you were - exhausted in the middle of the night rocking and praying that our baby will go to sleep NOW b/c you don't think you can handle another minute of the crying. I remember sitting on the side of my bed and sobbing with Ella in my arms b/c there didn't seem to be an end in sight. In those dark times I often repeated "this too shall pass". Funny how everything seems worse at night eh?
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