O.K now I know there is something wrong with me. After completely decorating, measuring and planning the new renovations in our non-existent home I thought I could finally relax a little. Let it go and focus on something else. However now I'm realizing that we can get this house so cheap and MAKE it our dream home! All that has been accomplished is now I have let go of wanting the other house. Now I am focused on acquiring the red brick house and moving in.
I went to sleep last night without a problem, but woke up at 3am and could not fall back asleep!!!!! All I could think about was who we know in the trades business to help us out, what materials to buy ect. This is ridiculous and I'm driving myself crazy.
So I missed church today because I did not fall asleep until 6am again and am simply exhausted. It is sunny out and this is Adam's only day off in two weeks and I missed church with him because I can't stop obsessing. So sad....so sad.
I have even tried focusing on other things. Yesterday I managed to crochet my blanket, read my Anne of Green Gables book, pick out all desired baby names from a huge book, read my running magazine, and of course pay attention to my kids. To no avail.
O.K....I Alyson promise to put away the floor plans today and not touch them or obsess about selling this house. I promise to focus my attention on other things such as my family and doing laundry or something.
Here goes nothing.......
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